Believe, believe in me...

You may have gathered from the fact that I rarely post here but am now posting twice within two hours that I am quite bored. Which would be an accurate observation.
I'm in my house after a lovely weekend with Boy and am already counting the hours before I can return. Mostly to see him again and also mostly to get the fuck away from my parents. You can figure out the math of having two "mostly's" in a single sentence.
Anyway, all I really have to do right now is to gorge myself on M&M's and Jelly Bellies from my cousin's wedding while I listen to my iTunes and contemplate watching Funny Games, though I don't really want to watch it by myself. As a result of this boredom and newfound ability to use Imeem correctly, I decided to make a playlist only with songs that describe my personality, an event I went through, or contain so sort of significance to me.
The play list is 30 tracks, and I will try to put one track up here every now and then as well as some sort of description about why it's on this play list. It's not in any real order, and I may change it as time goes on, but I tried to more or less put them chronological order of my life (while still trying to make the tracks run into each other relatively smoothly... I mean, having Iron & Wine being followed by Circa Survive is a bit jarring, y'know?)

At any rate, the first song on my list has already been discussed briefly in my last post; "Tonight Tonight" by the Smashing Pumpkins. Because of that, I'll blabber on some more and give the second song on my list.
When I was little, probably about second grade, my older sister ripped a Hanson CD from my hands and handed me Mellon Collie and the Infinite Sadness by the Pumpkins. While it's certainly not their best album, it is my favorite. I always have a special place in my heart for the first songs I hear by an artist. My first Pumpkins exposure was "Bullet with Butterfly Wings" (unless you count Lauryn singing "We Only Come Out at Night" to me in the dark with a creepy voice). In high school my senior year, it was a mandatory project that all senior's make a "Senior Scrapbook" in their English classes. I was lucky and my AP English teacher was mad chill about them; all she did was say we needed a certain number of pages and different topics in it and that was all. My good friend Aleks had the good idea of making the first page of her book the lyrics to a song that was important to her. She chose "Back in Black" by AC/DC (for damn good reasons) and after much deliberation I decided to copy her idea and use "Tonight Tonight." One of the best songs by my favorite band, with lyrics that perfectly describe the sensation I had leaving high school and moving onto the college. I mean, come on:

"Time is never time at all,
You can never ever leave
Without leaving a piece of youth.
And our lives are forever changed,
We will never be the same;
The more you change the less you feel."


If those lyrics don't provoke a sense of a fear of time, of aging, of leaving everything and everyone you have ever known behind you to move onto your next stage of life, I don't know what would.
I love this song so much.